lizvogel: Banana: Good.  Crossed streams: Bad. (Good Bad)
My mechanic finally called, and my trusty* Saturn LW300 is headed for the great freeway in the sky. I was right that it was the timing chain; unfortunately when it went, it took a bunch of engine valves and things with it. I'd be looking at a new engine if I wanted to keep it on the road, if he could even find one, and aside from the fact that that would cost about as much as I paid for the thing, (a) that's pretty much the car, and (b) that's a hell of an expense to put into a 24-year-old car with 293,000 miles, a rusted-out frame, and a dodgy transmission.

*Okay, not so trusty; it's been a repair nightmare since I bought it. But damn it, I liked that car. It was a real joy to drive on the expressway, and it had a lot of neat little features. (Switchable traction control! even if I never did use it.) And I've had it for 16 years; we've been through a lot together.

At least I got to take that one last long trip with her, to Narrativity in June. And as they say on Cabin Pressure, at least this is landing on Mayfair with a hotel. One of the challenges of an old car is the increasing questions of "Is this the last repair? Is this?" A potential $4-5K repair doesn't leave much to question.

Luckily I still have my mom's old minivan, so while I will need to go car shopping, at least I'm not stranded without wheels until I find something.

I'll be heading over tomorrow to clean her out, hopefully with the housemate's help. And then I'll be calling junkyards to see if I can get anything for her: the tires, wheels, and windshield were new this year; that ought to be worth something to someone, and maybe she can help keep some other old beast on the road.

lizvogel: What is this work of which you speak? (Cat on briefcase.) (Work)
Can I call it an acceptance in my heart if the rejection says they would've bought it if they were more confident of where the magazine itself is headed?

I have now received a rejection a day for four straight days. My only consolation is that it'll have to stop soon, because I only have a couple more things out!

Eyes Addendum

Thursday, August 13th, 2026 12:27 pm
lizvogel: Banana: Good.  Crossed streams: Bad. (Good Bad)
This morning I spent two hours writing (yay!!) on the designated writing laptop, which is so old that I'm happily running it in DOS mode. At the end of that, my eyes were a wee bit blurry, but far less so than after a few minutes' spell-checking with the help of my very tiny print paper dictionary.

Further confirmation, not that I needed it, that it's something in the quality of modern computer screens, circa WinXP-Win10 and newer.

lizvogel: Banana: Good.  Crossed streams: Bad. (Good Bad)
Friday and Saturday, I "attended" a virtual con. Good time, great people, but I was staring at a laptop screen twelve hours a day, which left me with such blurry vision that when I went to bed, I couldn't read very well even with reading glasses.

Yesterday, I spent most of the day out of the house running errands, and only did a quick two-minute email check all day. When I went to bed, I was able to read comfortably without glasses for a couple of hours before I finally fell asleep.

Just now, I took a break from other things and spent about an hour on the laptop. Yep, the world looks like I'm viewing it through a smear of grease.

I really have got to figure out what it is about modern screens that screws up my eyes. (It's not blue light, it's not related to resolution. It's not any of the things people usually say when the subject comes up. It's very frustrating.)

Sigh.

Tuesday, August 4th, 2026 04:50 pm
lizvogel: Banana: Good.  Crossed streams: Bad. (Good Bad)
Today I woke up early, successfully went back to sleep for a couple hours, finished a book, and wrote a mailing for the convention. It was going to be a good and productive day of con stuff. Then the housemate texted to tell me that today was voting day, and since both of our absentee ballots were still sitting in the mail organizer (fsck how is it August already?) and she won't get out of work before 7, we arranged that I'd bring the ballots and we'd go out to lunch. Got the mailing sent, and after the usual mad scramble to get out the door (There Is Always One More Thing), I set off... and just after I got on the expressway, there was a soft pff and suddenly I didn't have an engine any more.

So I called the local tow company, and called them again, and finally got through to someone who more or less knew how to answer a telephone. Luckily the driver was better, and arrived after only about ten minutes of me sitting in a hot car in the sun by the side of the ridiculously busy and loud expressway. Housemate met me at the mechanic's, we went to a different restaurant than planned, and dropped off the ballots on the way as she drove me home.

As car trouble goes it was pretty easy, but it's left me just effing done with this day. I should be working on the website and the workshop, but all I want to do is check out for the foreseeable.

lizvogel: What is this work of which you speak? (Cat on briefcase.) (Work)
There was an interesting anthology call for which a story idea I'd been poking at seemed like a good fit. The deadline was yesterday, and the story's not done. Which I'd feel worse about if the story wasn't already over the 2000-word maximum and it's maybe 2/3 done.

This is the second time recently that I've tried to write a story specifically for an anthology call with a 2000-word limit, and it's been an unsatisfactory experience both times. Not writing for a specific call; I've done that before, and it's generally worked out well. But the 2K limit, both times, has crippled both the story and the writing process. Which is a weird thing to say for someone who half the stories she has in inventory are in the 800-1400 word range! But in both cases, I've found myself too aware of how much real estate a given passage was taking up, second-guessing the pacing and the choices, and thoroughly divorced from the flow. The Dix story I mentioned previously is still sitting around waiting for me to put it back together the way it should've been in the first place. And this new one has been fighting me every step of the way, which yes is partly because I'm out of practice, but also because that constant awareness of wordcount has made me question whether each and every bit truly needs to be there, instead of just writing the damn thing and letting the words sort themselves out.

I need to not do this again. Anthology calls are fine, if I've got an idea I'm interested in for it. But no more 2K limits, or indeed short limits of any kind. Even if I do end up writing a short-short when I could go longer, which seems like the sort of thing my back-brain would probably do.

Cute Cat Stories

Thursday, July 30th, 2026 11:46 pm
lizvogel: Run and find out, with cute kitten. (Run and Find Out)
1) Yesterday, when I'd got home from running errands and was changing clothes, Teh Kitten climbed up on my bed and was wandering around and around, squeaking. He liked petting but that clearly wasn't what he was asking for; he kept padding around and insisting on... something. Then I took off my shirt and dropped it on the bed, and he practically dived under it. (He did actually stick himself through the neck at for a minute.) Ah, says I, and went to get the light blanket-throw I keep for the purpose. I barely managed to unfold it without him climbing on it, then I spread it out over him and he curled up into a happy kitten lump. Yes, he wanted his blankie.

2) As I was making dinner, I glanced out the kitchen window and there was a deer. Right there in the backyard, standing over the septic tank, staring with great interest at... the deck, where both cats were hanging out. I spent several minutes tiptoeing around to try to see both the deer and the cats' reactions to her, without letting her see me. She did spot me through various windows a couple of times, with a "Huh, what's that?" stare, but when I froze and slowly pulled back out of sight she returned her attention to the cats. She kept coming closer, until she must have had her front feet in the flower bed; any closer and she would have been on the deck. And the cats? I don't think LittleGirl even realized she was there; she can't hear, of course, and she was so busy staring in through the door waiting for it to open that I don't think she noticed there was a visitor present. (Which is probably just as well, since LittleGirl thinks she is a panther and more than a match for something deer-sized.) Teh Kitten was sprawled out dozing in the sunshine; he was facing straight at the deer, and must have seen her through his slitted eyes, but she clearly wasn't something he needed to get worked up, or indeed to get up, about. The deer eventually went on her way, and the cats were far more interested in the treats they got for coming in.

3) The housemate & I had a lot of pent-up conversation after she was gone for five days, so I was standing in her room still chatting quite late last night. Teh Kitten came in, tail up and voice a-squeak, demanding that I follow him and give him something Right Now. But he didn't lead me to the food bowls, or even try to persuade me to let him out at a quarter past midnight; no, he led me to my room, climbed up on my bed, and insisted that I get into it too! It was time and past time for him to have a warm human to curl up next to, and he wasn't taking no or even soon for an answer. Luckily I was already ready for bed, so I was able to slide in -- he even let me have a decent portion of the mattress, and some covers -- and he promptly selected a suitable part of me for a backrest, and snuggled up just as should be.

lizvogel: Run and find out, with cute kitten. (Run and Find Out)
Saw a turkey stalking down to the pond. It seemed to be on its own; then I saw the other turkey. And yes, turklets!* I couldn't get an exact count, but there were at least half a dozen fluffy, grey-brown forms bobbing through the weeds. Parent turkeys herded them around the pond and off into the tall grass on the far side.



*Yes, I know they're not actually called turklets. But they should be.

lizvogel: Banana: Good.  Crossed streams: Bad. (Good Bad)
Not sure how much of it I've detailed here, but I've been trying for over a year to get my mother's final tax refund. IRS agrees it's owed and agrees the amount; they just won't hand it over. Different excuse every time, and every time involves literally hours on the phone (mostly on hold), getting disconnected and having to start over from scratch at least once, and a truly Kafka-esque level of bureaucratic run-around.

So on June 16th, when the promised check still didn't arrive and the IRS was refusing to even take calls, I hunted down a working number for the Taxpayer Advocate Service. Multiply tries and another hour on hold, but I finally got through to someone who said yes, it's just the sort of thing they look into, and told me all the additional docs I should submit along with the form 911. (Yeah, somebody at the IRS had a sense of humor about that one.) A few weeks later, I got a letter saying they were working on the case. And on Friday, one month exactly since the form went in the mail, I got a check! For the full amount plus interest, which was certainly owed but I wasn't going to pursue because I figured it would require a separate claim.

Okay, so they made it care-of me instead of to my mom, which meant my bank had to run it through my personal account before transferring the equivalent amount to the estate account -- but it got there! We actually have the refund!

And that means that, two and a half years after she passed, after having to extend the estate twice solely because of this refund, I can finally settle my mom's estate.

The Power of Purr

Friday, July 17th, 2026 11:05 pm
lizvogel: What is this work of which you speak? (Cat on briefcase.) (Work)
I tried a new trick today, and it worked.

Why Do We Always Need to Pet Everything? is a very cool video about the neurochemical and evolutionary reasons that humans love stroking warm things with fur, but it also has a bit on research that shows the frequencies at which cats purr not only reduce stress in humans, they also promote healing in bone and muscle. So when I took our little 22-year-old tortie to the vet today, I thought I'd try paying it back. She always shivers from nerves at the vet. I tucked her up against my chest and tucked her head under my chin, and, while I can't purr, I tried humming at a similar frequency. She can't hear, but she could feel the vibration. And... she stopped shivering! And she was much calmer during the exam.

So yeah, purr-substitute humming. It works!

lizvogel: fancy N for Narrativity (N for Narrativity)
A month since the end of Narrativity is approaching, and I am almost done with the post-con work! The coffeemakers are air-drying, preparatory to being packed and stored for a year, and I have some notes & ideas left to type up. But everything else, from doing the consuite's dishes to cleaning/counting/packing/storing the inventory and making notes on what we'll need to buy for next year to the no-show mailing and the free membership drawing and the consuite shopping list and and and and and... is done! (Doubtless I will now find something else that isn't, having typed that.)

And then... I get to start on next year's stuff! Or rather, dive into it, since next year's work has already started even while I'm still finishing this year's.

Two things that really helped this year: On Sunday night, pile everything into spare boxes (big thanks to my ConSuite Coordinator for saving those!) and haul it all to my room, and sort & pack on Monday when I can take my time. And for the shelves, toasters, and anything else that works, clean them at the hotel and final-pack them there, so I don't have to unpack them when I get home. Miles better!

lizvogel: fancy N for Narrativity (N for Narrativity)
Narrativity is in one week. OMFGaaieeeeeeeeee! I am, as is only to be expected, Not Ready. Although given the number of new things, old things that are newly mine to deal with, and just generally Things, I suspect I'm a lot closer to ready than I might be.

The cookies are done, photographed, and packed up. Three batches of dough plus an emergency back-up batch, which I ended up cutting and baking because the baked cookies last just short of forever, whereas the raw dough has a limited fridge life. I made some fairly ruthless choices about what got decorated and what didn't; the following, which I really think is about three batches of dough worth, are going to the con:

again, cut to spare everyone who doesn't care, which is nearly everyone )

Really, honestly, three batches of dough was plenty.

I measured the time in episodes of Cabin Pressure and, later, Hitchhikers Guide (because even I can only listen to St. Petersburg so many times), roughly half an hour per episode:

making dough = 7 eps (3.5 hours)
cutting and baking = 13 eps main, plus 4 eps for backup dough (8.5 hours)
decorating = 4+3+5+9+7+7+6+7+2+5+6+8+1 = 70 eps (35 hours)
pics and packing = 2+2+1+5 = 10 eps (5 hours)

for a grand total of 52 hours. Yes, the cookies are a full-time job.

Also, for the record, HHGttG gets really weird toward the end.

lizvogel: fancy N for Narrativity (N for Narrativity)
The program book's at the printers, and I got four hours of sleep last night. That's actually excellent! Historically, it's been an all-nighter. But the head of programming got me the info a little early, and I've been working on the layout for some time now so that I could have all the inevitable battles with recalcitrant graphics and inadequate computer memory before the last minute.

There's no way that the final print-prep isn't going to mean a late night, because too much of it really is keyed to the midnight-Central-time final price change. But doing in advance what can be done in advance is definitely the way to go!

And now, I think I'm going back to bed.

lizvogel: fancy N for Narrativity (N for Narrativity)
I am bad at journal-posting.

About a month ago, I went to Minicon, where I hosted a room party 2 nights running for Narrativity. This was the first ever room party I'd run, so of course it was a learning experience; among the things I learned is that a room party should *not* be a one-person undertaking!

Mainly I'm posting this, a month after the fact, to document the cookies for myself, because I am about to start making cookies for Narrativity, and data is useful.

cut because no one cares but me )

lizvogel: Chicory flowers (Landscapin')
Two days ago, we were watching the water pour through the tunnel the muskrats have cut through the berm, and that we haven't gotten around to fixing like we should have. Yesterday it ceased to matter, because the flood waters topped the berm. Today at least was sunny and nice, so I could look out at the lake we now live on the shore of.

The house is on a small rise, so we're okay as long as it doesn't get any worse, but another couple inches and we'll have to seriously consider sandbagging the AC compressor. The sump pump's been running basically non-stop.

The most annoying thing is that the grass really needs to be mowed, and even the few parts that aren't underwater are far too soggy to do anything with.

lizvogel: What is this work of which you speak? (Cat on briefcase.) (Work)
So there's this anthology call for which I thought I might write a story. I came up with a plot idea to fit the theme, and then I came up with a better plot idea. And then I wrote about half the story, then paused for research, which is when I discovered the science didn't work at all the way I needed it to. So there was a lot of flailing and more research and wondering if I should just let the story die. Finally I got my idea and reality to play nice with each other, or at least nice enough to be going on with.

Research issues aside, I didn't get quite as into the story as I would've liked, because the anthology has a hard upper limit of 2000 words, so I was trying to write short. So of course it came in at 2362. *facepalm*

Cut nearly 400 words? Not bloody likely, but I figured I'd give it a try, just for the experiment.

The current fashion for "efficient" writing is entirely wrong-headed, IMNSHO. But it's been an interesting exercise trying to edit for shorter ways to say things without entirely losing the rather sprawly, drawly voice of the story. Surprisingly, I was still fairly pleased with it after the first pass (2114 words) and even the second pass (2030 words).

The third pass, however, was a different matter. Apparently there is a point at which the character stops sounding like himself, and trying to cut those last thirty words passed it. It's down to 2003 now, and losing those 27 words hurt. And three more, while it should not be that big an obstacle, is a big obstacle. I'm about to give it another go, and then I'm going to have to think about whether this is still something I'm comfortable submitting.

ETA: Okay, done it! And amazingly, it's not bad. The longer version is better, but I wouldn't be sorry to see this one in print. (And if it doesn't sell, I can mine the various passes for useful phrases and go back to the +400 words version for regular submissions.)

lizvogel: Banana: Good.  Crossed streams: Bad. (Good Bad)
Feeling overwhelmed by the to-do list as usual, so I decided to just write everything else off for this week, and set the days aside for taking the cat to the vet, taking the car to the mechanic, and especially doing my taxes. Yep, just that; gonna focus on that and get it taken care of and not melt myself down trying to do seventeen things at once. Good plan.

And then I checked my email. What was that, like 20 seconds?

There's a thing I wasn't expecting to have to deal with until late May, and now I have to fit it in this week. And it's just a phone call, but it's a pretty big deal and I'm going to have to do a lot of prep for it, both practical and mental/emotional. And gawd, I just want to curl up with my tax forms and not deal with anything else, and instead I'm gonna have to fucking adult and I just don't wanna.

This always happens when I set aside a chunk of time to Just Do This. It's like blocking out the time creates a magnetic field that attracts other obligations. I wanna hide in a Faraday cage for time management.

Sky's not so blue

Thursday, March 5th, 2026 02:28 pm
lizvogel: A jar of almonds that warns that it contains almonds. (Stupid Planet)
I recently set up a Bluesky account for posting pictures of my little travel buddy: https://bsky.app/profile/touristbear.bsky.social

And after I'd played with it a bit, I set up an author account, too: https://bsky.app/profile/lizavogel.bsky.social. I'm mostly name-squatting there, but Bluesky seems to be the least-bad of the major socials, so I figured I'd stake my turf while I could.

Today I went to post another Tourist Bear picture, and discovered that none of my previous posts were visible, and my avatar picture had disappeared. I made a new post; couldn't see it either, logged in or not.

Support email sent.

At least my author account still had avatar and banner pic, and the one post I've made still showing.

Five minutes later, as I'm typing this, I go to copy the URL and discover that Tourist Bear's posts are back, although the avatar is still gone. And grabbing the author account URL, yes, both the avatar and banner pic are now missing, although the one (pinned) post is still there.

This is not encouraging me to spread my social media wings. Maybe I'll just stay here on Dreamwidth, where things, y'know, (knock wood) work.

ETA: Prompt response from support, that this is a known bug and they're working on it. Um... prompt response is nice, but this is literally what your site is for and it's not working? This is not a thing that should happen to a site that's more than about a week old, guys.

lizvogel: What is this work of which you speak? (Cat on briefcase.) (Work)
The book I'm currently working on packing up for an old-school paper submission includes the bad guy being captured in part because he trips over a cat. Anyone who thinks that's unrealistic should see how much "help" my cats are currently giving me.

Get over there

Thursday, January 15th, 2026 10:39 am
I've been waffling like a waffling thing about going to Minicon. Narrativity should have a presence there, ideally a room party, plus I keep saying I want to go to more conventions and it sound like my kind of con. I have bursts of "yes, let's go, rah!" but overall I've been weirdly reluctant to commit to actually going.

Part of it's the money; Minicon itself is reasonably priced, but I'll have to fly, and I don't have a roomie. Part of it's simply that committing to any firm plan these days is stressful for me; scheduling, having to be somewhere at a fixed time, etc. hits me right in the condo-estate-hospitals-toxic-job overload point that still hasn't recovered after a year-plus off. And organizing a room party, especially when I won't have my own transportation, is a whole 'nother level of scheduling and commitment and aaaargh! But part of it, I realize, is simply the idea of having to be "up" and interactive and out there for four straight days. I'd have to go somewhere! And do things! With people! Aieeee!

Perhaps my housemate is right that I need to get a job outside the house, just for the getting out of the house, if this is my reaction to, well, getting out of the house. It's just going to a con, with extra groceries, for goodness sake. Worst case scenario, the party won't be as awesome as I want it to be, I'll have some good conversations but make no real connections. Best case scenario, I'll inveigle some new members and maybe get to smof with the MNSTF crew, who seem to have similar ideas to mine about how to run a con. (Okay, worst case scenario is I'll miss a flight, but I've survived that before.) If I'm this anxious about the jump, maybe it's time to push myself out of the airplane.

I guess I'd better go to Minicon.

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