Get over there
Thursday, January 15th, 2026 10:39 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
lizvogelI've been waffling like a waffling thing about going to Minicon. Narrativity should have a presence there, ideally a room party, plus I keep saying I want to go to more conventions and it sound like my kind of con. I have bursts of "yes, let's go, rah!" but overall I've been weirdly reluctant to commit to actually going.
Part of it's the money; Minicon itself is reasonably priced, but I'll have to fly, and I don't have a roomie. Part of it's simply that committing to any firm plan these days is stressful for me; scheduling, having to be somewhere at a fixed time, etc. hits me right in the condo-estate-hospitals-toxic-job overload point that still hasn't recovered after a year-plus off. And organizing a room party, especially when I won't have my own transportation, is a whole 'nother level of scheduling and commitment and aaaargh! But part of it, I realize, is simply the idea of having to be "up" and interactive and out there for four straight days. I'd have to go somewhere! And do things! With people! Aieeee!
Perhaps my housemate is right that I need to get a job outside the house, just for the getting out of the house, if this is my reaction to, well, getting out of the house. It's just going to a con, with extra groceries, for goodness sake. Worst case scenario, the party won't be as awesome as I want it to be, I'll have some good conversations but make no real connections. Best case scenario, I'll inveigle some new members and maybe get to smof with the MNSTF crew, who seem to have similar ideas to mine about how to run a con. (Okay, worst case scenario is I'll miss a flight, but I've survived that before.) If I'm this anxious about the jump, maybe it's time to push myself out of the airplane.
I guess I'd better go to Minicon.
Part of it's the money; Minicon itself is reasonably priced, but I'll have to fly, and I don't have a roomie. Part of it's simply that committing to any firm plan these days is stressful for me; scheduling, having to be somewhere at a fixed time, etc. hits me right in the condo-estate-hospitals-toxic-job overload point that still hasn't recovered after a year-plus off. And organizing a room party, especially when I won't have my own transportation, is a whole 'nother level of scheduling and commitment and aaaargh! But part of it, I realize, is simply the idea of having to be "up" and interactive and out there for four straight days. I'd have to go somewhere! And do things! With people! Aieeee!
Perhaps my housemate is right that I need to get a job outside the house, just for the getting out of the house, if this is my reaction to, well, getting out of the house. It's just going to a con, with extra groceries, for goodness sake. Worst case scenario, the party won't be as awesome as I want it to be, I'll have some good conversations but make no real connections. Best case scenario, I'll inveigle some new members and maybe get to smof with the MNSTF crew, who seem to have similar ideas to mine about how to run a con. (Okay, worst case scenario is I'll miss a flight, but I've survived that before.) If I'm this anxious about the jump, maybe it's time to push myself out of the airplane.
I guess I'd better go to Minicon.